( Owling a moronCollapse )
( First things firstCollapse )
So I get Tony and Mike talking again and I become the butt of a joke.
( This is the thanks I get?!Collapse )
( Sticky sweet...Collapse )
Well, I'm back in my room...after talking with Mandy. *holds head* M-my head is killing me, I'm surprised I could even think straight. Gods I miss her...eventhough we fight like we're children. I-I want to see if we can't start over...maybe we can fix the things we screwed up the first time around. I-I hope I'm not just wishing my life away...
You build me up, you knock me down
Provoke a smile and make me frown
You are the queen of runaround
You know it's true.
You chew me up and spit me out
Enjoy the taste I leave in your mouth
You look at me, I look at you
Neither of us know what to do.
There may not.. be another way... to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in.
I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied til I'm under your skin.
Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
Not true but I believe 'em anyway.
So come to bed, it's getting late
There's no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race...
Gods! Why are these women driving me nuts? I know something happened to Luna and she's too damn stubborn to get help. I wanted to go down and see her...but Zabini's still in there with Daphne. Th-that's a blackeye I don't need. Not if I have to see Snape anytime soon. And well...*looks over at Mandy sleeping* ..I promised I'd ease up. On what? Caring. Caring too much. *raises an eyebrow* Of course she'd understand me needing to go see Luna in this situation...but... *runs his hands through his hair* m-maybe not.
Timing is not on my side. Ever.
Maybe Tony can check on her in the morning. If she's even there.
*climbs into bed with Mandy and buries his face in her hair*
Things on my mind these days:
- Mine and Luna's near death experience
Daphne and ....a baby?
- Mandy moving to America
- Mandy and Luna's arguing
- Shannon ad Luna's arguing
- My plans for next year, if I even make it through this one
- Lupin's assignment
- Snape's assignment
- Staying clear of Zabini
I'm going to lose her again... I just can't keep up with my own life.
I'm moving to Africa.
Hmm, though I'm not too good with heat... an-and sand...
I'm moving to Switzerland! Where I'm sure I'd be welcomed.
( Alex and I have another litle chatCollapse )
What a ball we had. I've only been home for a few hours and I already miss my mates. I finally have a chance to sit down and write a few lines before my mum and sister start fussing over me again. I-it's good to see them, honest, it's just that I'll have plenty of time over this sojourn for family, quote unquote, fun.
When I woke up this morning I thought my head would explode; I could barely open my eyes. Tony was just getting back from Pomphrey's himself and gave me one of the tablets she gave him for migraines. *smiles* I can't even remember leaving the ball last night. . . b-but I do remember being with Mandy. *blushes* Shannon dragged her home with her for break, since her mum is still in America and won't be back for a few weeks. I wish she could've come home with me, but . . . w-well when I asked mum she just raised an eyebrow asking where in blazes did I think she'd sleep. *frowns* We don't have such a large home anymore since dad passed. The space is a bit tight too since my sister is back from training abroad. My mum says we can go visit Shan's family though sometime soon and she said she'd love to meet my new *blushes* girlfriend. Seems I've been talking a bit too much about her. Sis bet me I couldn't hold a conversation for five minutes without mentioning her name. . . I have dish duty for the next fortnight.
I'm sending Tony an owl as soon as I finish dinner. He stayed at school for break to keep Padma company, but I want to see if they can get away to Shan's for a visit. I'd be great to all be together for the new year. *frowns* I also want to send an owl to Luna. She's alone at Hogwarts for break and well. . . it makes me feel awful. I'm sure she wouldn't want to go to Shannon's so I'm just going to try to keep in touch with her while I'm away. Maybe I can head back early if my family will let me and keep her company for a few days before everyone gets back.
Well, mum's calling. I hope everyone had a safe journey home.
Things got slightly out of hand, but . . .
( I needed to tell DaphCollapse )
Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun are
Streaming throught the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your
Eyes like a spotlight.
The beating of my heart is a drum
And it's lost, and it's looking for a rhythm like you.
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright
I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing til I give it to you.
I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
I can make all the stadiums rock.
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
And I can make you every promise that has ever been made
And I can make all your demons be gone.
But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really want to see me crawl?
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love . . .out of nothing at all. . .
( I'm gonna be sick . . .Collapse )
Merlin! Only a dream. . .
( Medicinal MusingCollapse )
One can't imagine how relieved I will be for this week to end. *sniffs* No match, no lessons, no getting out of bed. . .. My head is so stuffed I can hardly hear and I've been up all night coughing up my lungs . . . unsuccessfully. I hope my curtains kept out some of the noise, but I'm sure Anthony isn't my biggest fan these days.
My talk with Padma has been eating at me all week. I know I have to confront Mandy, I'm just afraid. Afraid of what could go horribly in the wrong direction. . . and I'm not so good at finding my way back to where I thought I was headed. I saw Luna the other day and . . . and we talked things through. She told me for her sanity's sake, we'll remain friends; no more. However, these sort of things are easier said than done. . .
I finally let Shannon up here and she nearly suffocated me with her coddling. She practically dragged my arse out of the room to go see Pomphrey. *smiles* But being a foot taller than she, I got my way and we didn't get past the threshold. She called me something her mother would find interesting for a young lady to say and then stormed off.
Well, I'm growing sore sitting up like this so I'm getting back under the covers. Leave me a comment and I'll respond. I promise. Unless you're Shannon. . .
Took a walk last night to clear my head. I couldn't even remember what had happened in Mandy's room . . just that I walked out of there alone. For a moment I was about to kiss her and make everything ok again, but then I opened my big mouth. That's all I remember. I think Luna was downstairs when I left . . yes she was. She told me to go to the lake to think. Being close to winter and all it was damn cold, but I didn't even notice until I woke up this morning and couldn't swallow. My throat hurts something awful.
Oh Merlin, I cut through the pitch last night just as it started to snow and stumbled upon Malfoy and . .well erm, . . .it's really not my business to say. Anyway, I must've fallen or something because my knee is all bruised and cut up. Not that physical injury surprises me much anymore. Probably serves me right anyhow. . .
Well, I was basically just posting to let anyone who cares know I am alive and breathe- well trying to breathe through a stuffed up nose. I'm not much up for any pep talks or confinements in towers so I'll just be hanging back for a bit. And well, Mandy, if you're reading this . . . I just want to tell you I'm sorry - for everything.